We are a result of our parents and ..

We are a result of our parents and their individual reason or simply their part of conceiving us. Under circumstances (our lives and its content) which has led up to now- we have become who we are. We are the result of our path with our genetic attributes, all this molded by society. It is [...]

Titles are overrated.

I suppose the season autumn is taking this part of the globe in it’s benumbed grip. Just two days ago the heat was nearly incomparable to the past summer days of 07. It came fast and has left me surprised; the temperature dropped 20C in just 2 days. The beginning of autumn is accompanied by [...]

Such difference – to write and to talk. (besides the obvious)

I talked to a male friend of mine couple of days ago about a few things on my mind, things that has been bothering me, that night I slept better and since then I am not feeling as low as I have. That I haven’t posted a new entry for these days speaks for it.
However I [...]

I am bitter towards you, jelaous, I compare myself to you.

I feel that I don’t meazure up. A part of the reason to why I feel this way is the way you treat me and act towards me.
So anyway, I feel I am wrong for you- as if you create this glitch between us. You make us mismatch. I have tried to reach you so [...]

While you have been away I have come to realize quite a few things.

About me, about you , about our crossed path; our relationship. I hope that at the time of your return I don’t let it run out in the sand as it have never been thought and felt- realized. I need to hold on to it, let it evolve, let it speak. It is things of good, [...]

There is so much wrong with me, inside me.

I don’t know where to begin to fix everything. It’s not a case of delusion due low self esteem. I am bright enough to understand my own reasons and results to some degree. My eyes are teary and my nose is wet and I feel hopelessness. I cried during shower yesterday. It is easier to [...]

The future is uncertain.

No one is aware of the state I’m in inside. Hard to reach should be a clue. Many seek my attention and they receive shallow conversations occasionally. I laugh one second and the next I’m indifferent. Drifting towards unreachable lows.
Everything that I have gone through, it’s not that strange that I turn off, that mentally [...]

I question everything because I am afraid.

I question everything because I am afraid. Like a little lonely girl who has to take care of herself. Cause is it not true, does things not happen when we are not on our guard? This is true for me, atleast.
People, especially men, hurt me. Wonder what makes the bad ones attract to me. I believe [...]

It’s difficult to find a good place to start so I suppose that to jump right into it is the answer.

My partner of 3 years is currently vacationing in Spain. He landed on the coast last evening. It actually feels very relaxing that he is so distant, it makes me appreciate him even more and that feels good.
Despite it being a thing of personal taste I think he is the best man in the world. [...]

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