Sometimes it’s about your self rather than others when it comes to acceptance.

And to admit some things (to yourself, don’t know about to whom it may concern, suppose it depends) can help you to better control them.
So I admit that I have jealous tendancies in my relation to you: my partner, and I am wary of it being about me and not you since reality is different [...]

I am bitter towards you, jelaous, I compare myself to you.

I feel that I don’t meazure up. A part of the reason to why I feel this way is the way you treat me and act towards me.
So anyway, I feel I am wrong for you- as if you create this glitch between us. You make us mismatch. I have tried to reach you so [...]