Someone broke me down.

Now I feel weak and nearly suicidal. I decided to hear the person out because he is a friend, I shouldn’t have listened. He has no idea it got to me this hard.

Why are chicks unstable?

A question I’ve heard my other half ask a couple times. I agree, we are so unstable! And it’s not easy being unstable, it’s not like I WANT to be on an emotional roller-coaster. However, aware of this, I can try do something about it. But if this is general for women, it’s probably not [...]

A sad too often story.

There are those who’s life started wrong and want to but can’t get on the right path. Naturally, I could be speaking of basically anything. I am not, however, my heart goes out to those as well. So, imagine a child, a baby girl being born into a hostile and dangerous environment. Again, there are [...]

Sometimes it’s about your self rather than others when it comes to acceptance.

And to admit some things (to yourself, don’t know about to whom it may concern, suppose it depends) can help you to better control them.
So I admit that I have jealous tendancies in my relation to you: my partner, and I am wary of it being about me and not you since reality is different [...]

I wanted to type down a view of men and women that don’t have any respect for a relationship, others.

Ofc I can only write from a woman’s perspective and out from who I am. So, I will write about men -although, as often, women are the same.
As often as a man respects that I am involved with someone, another doesn’t. To respect is to not attempt to receive anything else from me but friendship. [...]

We are a result of our parents and ..

We are a result of our parents and their individual reason or simply their part of conceiving us. Under circumstances (our lives and its content) which has led up to now- we have become who we are. We are the result of our path with our genetic attributes, all this molded by society. It is [...]

Titles are overrated.

I suppose the season autumn is taking this part of the globe in it’s benumbed grip. Just two days ago the heat was nearly incomparable to the past summer days of 07. It came fast and has left me surprised; the temperature dropped 20C in just 2 days. The beginning of autumn is accompanied by [...]

While you have been away I have come to realize quite a few things.

About me, about you , about our crossed path; our relationship. I hope that at the time of your return I don’t let it run out in the sand as it have never been thought and felt- realized. I need to hold on to it, let it evolve, let it speak. It is things of good, [...]

There is so much wrong with me, inside me.

I don’t know where to begin to fix everything. It’s not a case of delusion due low self esteem. I am bright enough to understand my own reasons and results to some degree. My eyes are teary and my nose is wet and I feel hopelessness. I cried during shower yesterday. It is easier to [...]

The future is uncertain.

No one is aware of the state I’m in inside. Hard to reach should be a clue. Many seek my attention and they receive shallow conversations occasionally. I laugh one second and the next I’m indifferent. Drifting towards unreachable lows.
Everything that I have gone through, it’s not that strange that I turn off, that mentally [...]